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Mar. 12th, 2008 03:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
afufleHah, caught up just a bit on friends journals here, nice to know I realize other people exist. ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
dutch_kitty added me as a friend--GOOD! Nice to see you after GJ all but went away.
Still vegetating, honestly...I guess it's what I want to do. But I did need to hit the library and do some stuff on the computer, so here I am. At least since October, I've been thinking about trying to find another shrink, really felt the medication helped me when I was taking it, really wish I could find someone I felt was smarter than I am.
My last therapist just seemed to despise me, and totally dominated what we talked about. She wanted to hear more and more about my mom, after I repeatedly told her I thought I did not need to talk about the problem, but about me. I even heard Dr. Drew talking about that, he's a recovering enabler, and he said you need to concentrate on yourself, not the person with the substance abuse problem. (there are people with a substance abuse problems who I like just fine, including myself, but a few are just insane and up my butt, like my mom).
She also didn't want to talk at all about my memory problems when I kept bringing it up, that's really really really something I needed to find out about. Criminy. What a jerk.
It's going to be 12 months in April I think, since I finally got a sponsor and started working the steps, so in April I guess I can start thinking about tackling something that's been a major problem for me for forever--unemployment. I'm not an idiot, so I shouldn't cower at the thought of even just flipping burgers or flicking a dustmop, but that's just where I've been for so long.
Most of the 8 to 10 inches of snow in my neck of the woods has melted, wow, it's gorgeous out there. Guess I'd better get moving, though, other library patrons have the gall to expect me to move after a couple hours at the box.
See you laters, agitators.
dutch_kitty added me as a friend--GOOD! Nice to see you after GJ all but went away. Still vegetating, honestly...I guess it's what I want to do. But I did need to hit the library and do some stuff on the computer, so here I am. At least since October, I've been thinking about trying to find another shrink, really felt the medication helped me when I was taking it, really wish I could find someone I felt was smarter than I am.
My last therapist just seemed to despise me, and totally dominated what we talked about. She wanted to hear more and more about my mom, after I repeatedly told her I thought I did not need to talk about the problem, but about me. I even heard Dr. Drew talking about that, he's a recovering enabler, and he said you need to concentrate on yourself, not the person with the substance abuse problem. (there are people with a substance abuse problems who I like just fine, including myself, but a few are just insane and up my butt, like my mom).
She also didn't want to talk at all about my memory problems when I kept bringing it up, that's really really really something I needed to find out about. Criminy. What a jerk.
It's going to be 12 months in April I think, since I finally got a sponsor and started working the steps, so in April I guess I can start thinking about tackling something that's been a major problem for me for forever--unemployment. I'm not an idiot, so I shouldn't cower at the thought of even just flipping burgers or flicking a dustmop, but that's just where I've been for so long.
Most of the 8 to 10 inches of snow in my neck of the woods has melted, wow, it's gorgeous out there. Guess I'd better get moving, though, other library patrons have the gall to expect me to move after a couple hours at the box.
See you laters, agitators.
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Date: 2008-03-12 10:58 pm (UTC)I really think it is time for you to see someone else. Someone that you can relate to, and feel comfortable with. You need a boost.
As for the unemployment... sometimes taking the lesser job will open up others for you; it just seems like the law of nature that once we do that other things just start opening up and we seem to get these windfalls.
Good luck with it, and even if you are flipping burgers it doesn't mean you can't keep looking.
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Date: 2008-03-13 12:38 pm (UTC)I agree. start with something small and work yourself up.
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Date: 2008-03-15 08:04 pm (UTC)And whatever happened to cold hands/warm heart (heehee, your icon!)
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Date: 2008-03-15 08:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-03-15 09:09 pm (UTC)You were talking to the pensieve! LOL