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[afufle]

Nervous. I want to close out my bank account which has $100 in it, just to get the cash. I need to pay back Linda for the utilities, not to mention I am running out of groceries. I used the new state quarters Clint gave me to get downtown to a computer, and hope I can get some pasta and a bell pepper to put in some black bean soup I've got a mix for.

I doubt I'm going to get Jim's info about a tadge of money he could get from a list of $$ owed I found at the libarary. I forget what it's called. I mean I won't get to it today.

I am rather hungry, just have had less food than usual, which is not a bad thing, really. I just wish I had the food I really should have.

Need to get over to Mom's house and get my blanket, my hot plate & double boiler & batik stuff. Some other things too, I can't remember at the moment. It's really getting cold, will not quite get to freezing tonight.

I skipped Alanon again, didn't go to the bank, so will probably not be able to go tomorrow. Maybe. But if I get bank & shopping done early enough, I can get home and Linda can drive me to meeting.

Still no church for me. The reasons are locked in my brain as nonverbal thinking, I believe--the subconscious, as some call it.

I don't know if I am ready to commit, don't have the reasons for doing it solidified, in other words, feel not ready yet, haven't considered it fully enough. I dont' want to do it in such a way as to offend my family; I hope I will not be going back to Roman Catholicism.
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It seems crazy about the money, but I never know what to do on short notice, can't think too well when I'm broke. I'm just conscious of trying to hold onto the account for the wrong reasons. Just so I don't lose stability in the eyes of some judgemental fuddy-duddies, I'm thinking. I don't know.

Doing a lot of graphics today, which I suppose many will never see, but I need to do something in that vein.

Comments

[sanapres.livejournal.com]

Just give yourself some time to sort everything out.

And you have to show these graphics your working on. I'd love to see them. :D

[andyh.livejournal.com]

Ohhh.. your sam and frodo icon is so lovely :)

[afufle.livejournal.com]

Thanks, it's by _poetic. If you take it be sure to drop by his/her journal and leave a comment. I saved quite a few that were purged to make room for more--_poetic is really good and produces a lot.

[afufle.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I just was panicked. I managed to dig up enough $ to keep me scraping by.

:D I posted some of the graphics today.

Weird, I thought I'd answered you the next day after you commented, so sorry about that.